Noodle on this…

I’ve been told I’m stubborn.  That I’m unforgiving.  I’ve been accused of purposely pushing people away or using sarcasm as a defense mechanism.

You can save your pathetic attempt at deciphering my personality like some psychology drop out.  I’m fully aware that I push people out of my life and you don’t have to be Sigmund fucking Freud to figure that out that it’s a defense tactic.

What brings this on?  Well I spent my Monday reading my psych book and writing a paper breaking down my personalities.  Not an easy task nor is it at all enjoyable.  So Noodles why are you so sarcastic… because I’m annoyed with the fake bullshit people put out there to appear like they’re perfect members of society.

I’m not perfect and I guess I live with the luxury of knowing that.  I don’t need to put on some front in order to live my life.  I don’t have to lie about where I’ve been or what I’ve done out of fear that people will judge me.

I was lucky enough to grow up in a loving family and though, unfortunately, we suffered a number of traumatic loses I’m still here.  Undoubtedly, the loss of my father when I was 8 or the death of my nephew when I was 11 on their own would have left me scarred in some way.  I think in everyone’s life there are moments where certain levels of depression are experienced.

My point is that I have my issues… but I don’t use them as a crutch.  Everything I have and everything I’ve done in my life I’ve earned and worked hard for.  Well maybe not everything… I did go on a few so called “comped” vacations which I later found out weren’t legit.  But that’s a story I’ll keep in reserve…

for now.

Maybe I don’t have much but what I do have is more then I could ever ask for. 

They say Live, Laugh and Love…

and I do.

“Permanence, perseverance and persistence in spite of all obstacles, discouragement, and impossibilities: It is this, that in all things distinguishes the strong soul from the weak”